Serey Timorthy

 thanks thanks for making me experience a very realistic version of hell the time that i felt it from when you left me in that cinema until the sleeping of that night thanks for haunting me while you are still living ''i did not know better'' caused by my desperation, naivety and loneliness.  ''i did not see that coming'', i stood in front of the storm i was tricked and illusioned by lights, i did not know yellow mixed with red resulted in green i thought it was green i was unaware i could not read and learn what i have had learned i was unaware of the ''what they said'' they told me, that is all that you wanted and looking for you could not see anything further in me you drove kilometers to pick me up you were nice to me, suddenly you were nice in Louisiana Fried Chicken you are so handsome, it shamed the burger i ate you were nice until...[the second sentence, first paragraph] your body tastes like your presence in my life i am not thre...

 It feels like we've never dated before I instantly broke up into a million pieces when you acted drastically different the next day I called u a month later You prefer to not be called by the name I knew you anymore I died a million times I knew that it was your coping mechanism I knew that you cried too I was and am very aware that my problems get its way into our lovin I realized that I've never loved, cherished and appreciated you to my promised level I only said to have my way out of troubles I lost the wheels awhile back I recklessly lost your necklaces I bought for u It was truly a curse, because our love turned sour right then The chunk of my heart that I am reserving for you still hurt I've spent time reminiscing about the time I used to have you in my pocket wherever i go It maimed me, I bet it does the same thing to you too In big time, i'm feeling like between us, there was never a proper closure given It might not even need one Double Rainbow, I still wish ...

  It was a riot in my heart . Haywire and an electrocute aftermath It’s like I’d pay my life to escape An Escapee, A Gypsy and A Tramp I’ve lost too much of myself to scare of that In wish that they’ll be no replica of me I would take this to the death with me if I could In thought that I’ve lived through so much another 50-60 years would be fine I’ve lost the hype in life some while ago. It seems like it doesn’t matter if it’s a success or fail, neither of that will move anyone here in this town, nobody knows when you died in Phnom Penh  The closer the deadline, the hotter the flame burns, the grayest the sky, the sorrowest the town. I’m watching every dreams goes up in smoke. Nothing works anymore… I eat everyday just to produce blood in support for my internal bleeding  All sorts of pains are all numb now The Paralyzation and the Spasms and every Deep Aches, too.